Things I'm learning...

First off, I am so thankful for all of the love and support I received after my last post. The thoughtful comments and emails from family and friends really made a big difference to me. Thank you! Things have really, really improved for me as a mother over the last few months, and I have given a lot of serious thought as to what has made things seem so much better. The answer, besides the kids going back to school, is me! Not me in a conceited "I'm so great" kind of way, but me because I realized that I set the tone in my family. If I am calm, and speak like a civilised person, then my children will be less likely to scream and yell. If they are screaming and yelling, what am I teaching them if I come flying into the room and yell at them to stop screaming and yelling? My children reflect me. For good or for bad. How many hundreds of times have we heard "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you"? I was not treating my children the way that I would want to be treated, and my attitude stunk!

Life isn't easy. There are stresses in my life that my kids can't see, that can really effect my everyday life, but it isn't fair for me to be less of a mother because it. I have been given these amazing children to help them grow and learn and become the wonderful adults that they are meant to become. I don't want them to look back at their childhoods and say that their mom was inconsistent, yelled, and felt the need to control them. I want them to say that their mom was strong, steady, loving, and was always in their corner no matter what!
I know we go through everything for a reason. I am trying to be better today than I was yesterday. My family deserves the very best I can give them every single day.

I think I was born a procrastinator, and that is one of the things in my life I am trying to remedy. I do want to keep up on this blog, and whether of not I start a new one or not, is yet to be determined. I am committed to stay focused on what matters most in life, and keep balance so that I don't drive myself or my family nuts! I am a talker and a writer (in journals). It feels like therapy to me. If reading my thoughts and ramblings on motherhood and my family helps or entertains you, great! If not, no biggie it's helping me! I love my family more than anything, and insuring it's success is one thing I can't afford to procrastinate!

Lanna